Macih!

We always try to speak perfect English with Afeef, coz we know he can
catch up w Malay by himself since evbody around him speaks Malay. But
somehow he prefers Malay than English most of the time like today,
when he was sucking his empty bottle n babah said "ala sian ank babah,
come babah make ur milk" and he passed his bottle sambil ckp "macih!"
eventhough we always teach him to say thank you n he can say "hakyu"!
Some of the Malay words he preferred from English are:
Tepi - excuse me
Nak - i want
Anak - dont want
Dah tapai - we're home
Dah abish - finish
Air - water

What can i say, malay is his mothertongue afterall!

Milestone: Afeef 1yr 10mth old & Amalia 3mth 2wks old

Dulu mase Afeef rajin sikit update his milestone,sejak ade dua anak, bukan malas, tp sebab byk sgt perkara to update terus bingung & x update...haih..

Well, to start with, Afeef is 1 yr 10 mths old, byk betul dh pandai mengajuk kte ckp. Indahnya Iman pn die dh bole hafal cume butir2 sebutan tu xbape clear. Pandai ckp Bye, Akum (assalamualaikum), sgt friendly kalau jumpe org esp org baru akan angkat tgn sambil ckp Hi! and bile nk pegi ckp Bye! pulak, suke baca alfatihah tp part "Waladdholliiin...Amin" aje sebutan die clear. Bole fhm instructions very well like sit down, take Mama's phone, cry (he'll pretend to cry too), wait (when i said to him wait first he'll sambung ATEE? as in OK? coz sometimes I like to say "wait ok?", no, come and eat, let's take bath he'll go to the bathroom straight and wait for me at the door, InsyaAllah by 2 yrs old Afeef dh bole construct full sentence ye syg..amin..pandai rimas, i.e. when we say lets take bath terus meluru ke toilet walaupun in the midst of doing something interesting, and especially when diaper dh berat. Xsuke diaper berat, sejak dpt adik, dah many times bile diaper berat he'll tarik2 sampai koyak and open it by himself as in lorotkan on the floor and run around bottomless! Tak pandai sebut huruf L tapi pandai sebut ALLAH really well, alhamdulillah! Sgt suke Maher Zain, obviously when a child likes Indahnya Iman, sbb after azan mesti ade lagu Maher Zain. Afeef sgt suke nyanyi nowadays, asik la humming and singing tp xdgr butir just the melody. Paling favorite is, "InchaAllah..InchaAllah..." siap macam tarik nafas dulu and penuh semangat nyanyi dgn high pitch siap kening kerut2...kelakar la anak mama ni kihkihkih! 

Amalia dh pandai pusing mengiring and dh tunjuk tanda2 nk pandai meniarap sejak masuk 3mths old, tp up till now belum bole lagi, xpe syg..take ur time..ikut normal milestone chart pn 4-5mths br start meniarap. She's a friendly baby just like her Along too suke senyum n ketawa bile org dtg tgk, but Amalia is friendlier in the sense that, die memang muke senyum. Duduk diam2 sorang2 pn senyum aje, girl agaknye. Dah pandai melekek2 ketawa sejak masuk 3mths old, the 1st time was with Babah. Babah borak2 dgn die tibe2 die ketawa melekek2 dgn kuat sampai semua org toleh (malam sebelum her majlis akikah). Dah start tgk tgn from 2mths old. Masuk je 3mths terus pandai tgk tgn and masukkan dlm mulut. Start 3 mths jugak dh kenal org, bile nampak Mama buat suara nk susu "eh..eh..eh..". Mase her Aqiqah i.e. wedding Alan, she was playing with me on the bed. Tibe2 her Che tarik her to different direction and facing her Che instead and ckp, "asik main dgn mama je, meh main dgn che pulak.." Terus nangis sambil kepala toleh2 tgk Mama. Sejak tu, when I gave her to someone else, her Che or Bibik or Mama Ngah, die akan diam mula2. But once she heard my voice, try pusing ke arah my voice and terus cebik and nangis sekuat hati. And bile Mama amik balik, mcm ade switch button, terus diam nangis. Manja Mama ni, selain Mama only Babah can hold him without her crying unless nk susu.

Forever a protective brother.

Afeef mengigau!

Sgt klaka! We went to celebrate his Achik's bday at Pizza Hut Ampang
Park. Mkn pasta sgt byk, I've only discovered his cravings towards
pasta just recently. Agaknye sedap sgt pasta, mlm tu siap ngigau tgh
mkn! Mata tutup, tp tgn suap mulut n kunyah mouthfully, lps tu tgn
menggapai mcm amik food from pinggan hidang then ltk on his
plate..cutela chebol mama ni mmuahh!

Milkaholic!

Saya tgh gile mkn chocolate ini, sgt sedap! Rase manis2 lemak2 coklat masam2 strawberry yogurt, sgt sedap! 2 bar sekali hadap selambe, sgt sedap!

Ye satu office dh terpengaruh dgn saya maka inila hasilnya: one whole wastebasket full of milka packs!!

Afeef 1st Surgery

Afeef selalu jatuh. Everytime jatuh mesti tersembam muke dulu n mulut
wajib pecah n byk darah sbb gigi tergigit bibir. Baru last 2 weeks
Afeef jatuh mcm tu n I said to Mak, Afeef mesti jatuh sembam muke
dulu, mulut wajib berdarah. Org kate ibu jgn byk ngate ank bende
xelok, nnt mcm doa.

Arini Afeef jatuh lg, mase keluar bfast dgn Nekni n Ucu Ana kt Risyad.
Balik umah Babah n Mama cpt2 ltk minyak mcm biase. Afeef trus tertdo
lps mnum only 1.5 ounce milk sbb penat mnangis. At 2pm i.e after
nearly 3hrs jatuh, mulut Afeef still bleeding, pelik. Biase sekejap dh
kering. Mama suluh mulut Afeef yg still asleep dgn torchlight,
terkejut Mama, d cut was deep n bleeding still.

Bergegas Mama n Babah bwk ke Columbia Puchong. As expected, Afeef need
stitches, what we didn't expect is, he was referred to a surgeon n
Anaesthetist is involved. Kids below 4 yrs can't be stitched as
outpatient n without anaesthetic according to MO. Afeef needs to be
warded for d procedure n puase for 6 hours prior surgery. It was a
minor one as assured by d MO, only 1-2 stitches. Surgery was scheduled
at 6pm however postponed to 6.30pm.

Babah was to accompany Afeef smpi d Anaesthetist put him to sleep with
gas. Once asleep Babah is supposed to exit the OT n d surgeon will
take him from there. I was v worried n feeling doubtful especially on
giving him any anaesthetic however pujuk hati ni, xpe just 1-2
stitches n my baby will be fine n recover faster. Tapi bile smpi OT d
anaesthetist start asking me scary Qs like "Puan, are you aware of
what d surgeon is going to do to your son?" while hubby was led thru d
backdoor to change to OT scrub. I started to doubt our decision even
more. I felt like running out of the OT with my baby in my arms but i
know, it was too late.

Abang appeared looking handsome in OT scrub n took our baby from me, i
watched them walking into the OT with a big lump in my throat, i felt
like crying seeing his pitiful beautiful big eyes staring at me while
Babah took him inside as though begging me silently to stop this from
happening. I cried anyway as I walked back to the ward.

After 1/2 hour d surgeon came out n see us, everything's fine. The
wound was flower shaped, not a simple straight line, so we understood
very well it's more than 2 stitches. Doc said d wound should heal in
3-5 days, Afeef couldn't come out just yet as they need to monitor him
like taking his bp etc.

He came out after an hour in d OT looking much worse as his mouth
swells even more than before due to the surgery and he looked so
miserable n groggy due to the GA.

Tonight as I'm typing this entry, I'm sleeping alone with Amalia,
already missing my baby boy who's spending d night at the hospital
with Babah taking care of him, thank you suamiku sayang...
Mama doa sangat2 Afeef cepat sembuh, sayanngg buah hati Mama..

REZEKI

When we talk about REZEKI it always means the source of money to some of us, including me. And by money, rezeki therefore means career, well, at least to me.

I've been working in the same company since I 1st graduated, that makes it nearly 5 stagnant years. I think for some concrete reasons, finally it's time for me to move on. 1stly, I'm feeling bored already, not because of doing the same thing for 5 years, not. My company is a small consultant, therefore you get surprise tasks all the time, Aishah, I want you to do analysis on structural design..Aishah, you are now the project engineer of this job, so start monitoring the progress of all discipline from now..Aishah, I want you to procure some steels and timber for this project, please do the MTO 1st and start sending Purchase Order...Aishah, there's a problem with the Fresh Water System in this project, please study and find out the problem...Aishah, we're now eyeing for Wellhead Platforms, please do some study as I want you to become the Process Engineer for these projects..it's always a new thing, new experience, every day.

You see? My CV is kinda colourful, with too many experiences in too various specialization, I can become a Process Engineer, a Safety Engineer, a Project Engineer, a Structural Engineer and etc etc. I always complained as I always wanted a focus and more specialized job so I can be an expert in that 1 particular field. But Abang always assured me that this will be good for my CV, CV you cantik as he always said. But sejak mengandung kan Amalia, I think my patience has reached the limit, enough already of doing things without guidance (we have no senior engineers at the office, so you are on your own all the time), enough of being a Multitask Engineer aka an ES (Engineer Sampah) as we always joked at the office.

Furthermore, for the 1st time in my 5 years working there, our pay due for 2 months, 2 CONSECUTIVE MONTHS! It's like a sign to me, for my whole 2 months confinement period, we didn't get our salary! Nasib baik tgh dlm pantang, so I feel nothing but relax, no need in paying parkings n lunches except for online shopping hehehe! So I've started sending out CV (in jobstreet mostly) after 1month confinement i.e. luka dh baik skit and dh bole duduk on chair lama in front of laptop. To my disappointment, almost every job I applied on jobstreet get viewed by the employer for more than once, 1 job even viewed my CV for 10 times! But at last, the status was unsuccessful, I get a lot of under considerations and kept for reference too but later the status changed to unsuccessful. More colleagues of mine are resigning while I'm in my confinement period and get a better offer at multinational companies while my effort remain fruitless. It was a totally devastating experience for me. I felt useless and demoralized at a point.

Then one day, I burst into tears, confiding to my dearest hubby, why orang lain murah rezeki, senang sangat dpt keje, there's even 1 newbie at my office who got a job that I applied too and he always seek for my advice at the office in doing analysis but he got the job while I was not even called for an interview. I started to think that I'm cursed and maybe hidup I x diberkati Allah and start to find what's wrong about me that make me an unlucky person.

As expected, as always, Abang just laughed while my tears are streaming down my cheeks. Abang said, Tak baik cakap macam tu, you ni x bersyukur. You ingat rezeki tu datang in 1 form je ke? Rezeki x semestinya your career only. Bersyukurla at least you already have a good job, bayangkan org lain yang xde keje langsung..tengok org yg lebih malang, org yg minta sedekah...jgn kita tgk org yg lebih bernasib baik...

And as usual, I always have points to refute back, Ala what's d point of having a good job if you didn't even got paid for it for 2 months? (I think i shud become a lawyer instead..maybe i've chose d wrong path anyway)

However deep in my heart, I start to think rationally, betul la..I memang x bersyukur, rezeki Allah beri pada makhlukNya comes in various forms, Allah Maha Kaya..memang I susah apply keje, tapi I terlupe sekejap pada nikmat dan rezeki yang tak terhingga yang dikurniakan padaku, sebuah keluarga yang bahagia and sepasang cahayamata yang comel sihat dan sempurna yang melengkapi hidup kami suami isteri..cukup hebat rezeki yang dikurniakan, cukup membahagiakan..tp sebab kecil macam ni, aku terlupa akan nikmat yang telah dikurniakanNya..mungkin ni ujian for me, untuk menguji sejauh mana kesyukuran I pada Allah swt, sejauh mana I tabah dan sabar..ya Allah berdosanya aku kerana tidak bersyukur dgn rezeki yang kau kurniakan, astaghfirullahaladziim...ya Allah ya Tuhanku, ampunkanlah dosa hambaMu ini dan jauhilah aku dan keluargaku dari sifat kufur..amin ya rabbal 'alamin..

I will never trade my beautiful family with anything in this world..

Amalia - 35 days old

Pic taken right before d Japs invaded Malaya..NOT!
Was taken at MFM Subang Parade..belum abis pantang lg, & was d 3rd
time I went out shopping eheheh!
I was desperate 2 find Amalia's plain tights 4 Ateh's wedding, lastly
jumpe at Mothercare..nvr ask, nvr knew!