Ramadan 1431H

Dulu before I was married, frankly speaking, Ramadan doesn't bring much meaning to me. To me, Ramadan means, I have to fast for a month, pergi solat Tarawikh tiap2 malam, kadang2 rasa letih x pegi pun xde perasaan rugi. Bile balik tarawikh, lepak makan morikh (i.e. sakibaki makanan berbuka yg masih banyak lagi) or sometimes kalau penat sgt terus tertido. I looked forward more to Syawal and rase x sabar nak end Ramadan sbb nk raye, makan kuih raya n minum air gas sambil lepak2 depan tv tgk program Raya. Kurang penghayatan, astaghfirullahalaziim..

Eversince I was married to Abang & his family, my Ramadan definition has totally change, Alhamdulillah to a much better definition. Everytime nak Ramadan, rase excited satu macam. Xsabar nk Tarawikh, xsabar nk pegi Tadarus after Tarawikh kt rumah BK ('rumah ibu' family Abang) and bile dah nk abis sebulan Ramadan rase rugi sgt, and rase mcm menyesal sbb xcukup memanfaatkan sebulan Ramadan. Sejak kahwin, Raya pun seronok jugak sbb byk berjalan Raya, family abang extremely besar. Abah asal Kg Baru, adik beradik 10 org, Mak pulak asal Petaling, adik-beradik 6 org, belum campur tok nenek sedara Abang lagi. Ramai betul. Satu hari berjalan sampai 5 buah rumah, itu biase..Raya seminggu hari2 berjalan Raya, belum kira yg datang rumah, mmg seronok sbb jalan beraya beramai2 rombongan smpi 5-6 bijik kereta, cukup meriah. Tapi tetap rase Ramadan lebih bermakna.

Tahun lepas I didn't have the chance to Tarawikh at the Masjid sbb Afeef mase tu baru 4-5 months old and fully on breastfeeding. So solat tarawikh di rumah aje, kurang semangat bile solat sendiri berbanding jemaah di Masjid. Tadarus pun kadang2 je dpt pergi sbb selalu Abang balik Tarawikh, I'm already fast asleep keletihan sbb menyusu badan.

Tahun ni, walaupun masih rase x cukup memanfaatkan sebulan Ramadhan, tapi rase paling happy n puas setakat ni, 1stly sbb dpt solat Tarawikh di Masjid bergilir2 dengan Bibik, since Afeef dh fully on FM and Afeef dh besar n pandai main2 dgn cousins and bawak diri. Terpakse bergilir sbb Bibik pn nk solat di Masjid juga. And 2ndly, I get to Tadarus in the same group as Abang*. Rase semangatnye satu macam, and rase bahagia :)

Furthermore, Abang punya ilmu dalam bacaan Al-Quran jauh lebih dalam dari orang lain dalam family especially me, so Abang banyak betulkan my bacaan sepanjang tadarus dari segi panjang harakat and tajwid. Terasa banyak sangat dapat belajar dr Tadarus tahun ni, thank you sayang..I love you soooo very much~

Afeef pn dah besar and bijak, bila pergi Tadarus rumah BK, we always angkat him while sleeping, awal2 selalu terjaga bile diangkat, and bile tengok org ramai dalam bulatan masing2 pegang Al-Quran, die pun sibuk nk pegang so I gave him a Yassin or sometimes pinjam buku Iqra' his Uncle Aqil. Nanti die pun sibuk membaca siap berlagu2 tiru intonation org2 mengaji and tarik2 nafas dalam2 after every stop, bijak betul meniru org tua..hehe. And then masuk 2nd week die dah macam immune diangkat2 naik turun kereta pergi tadarus, so he stayed asleep sampai la kami abis Tadarus and balik rumah Taman semula.

*Footnote: Before this we Tadarus in different group lelaki and perempuan separately and bahagi2kan juz sbb nk abis cepat n dapat khatam 2-3 kali, tp tahun ni sbb Abang cakap kalau buat macam tu xbole khatam sbb xdikire tadarus bersama, maka kami buat only 1 group tadarus and dapat khatam only once.

CPK

Dulu masa pregnant of Afeef, xde specifically mengidam anything cume perasan la selera tu more to masakan melayu. Sangat gile makan cili padi, walhal seumur hidup sebelum pregnant kalau makan any food nampak cili padi dalam lauk asingkan awal2 takut tergigit walaupun dh layu dek dimasak. Bole pulak tetibe mase pregnant every meal wajib ade cili padi hidup and make sure every suapan mesti ade 3-4 potong cili padi, kalau x xrase kick nye...ehhh pelik pulakk..lawan tokei betul (tokei = dearest hubby yang kuat pedas, die pun terbeliak tgk wife die yg aneh sbb die pn x mcm tu). Lepas tu suke makan ikan bilis garing, pun pelik sbb selalu asingkan awal2 mcm cili padi jugak, tp xla segila makan cili padi. Penyudahnya Afeef mmg bertekak melayu, sebijik Babah..ape Babah xsuke makan confirm die pn xsuke, haih kesian Mama masak lasagna ke mac n cheese ke semua xpenah dpt sambutan.

Tapi pregnancy kali ni, selera byk ke arah mat saleh specifically Italian. Makanan Arab and Jepun/Korean are big No-no sbb mase early pregnancy (xtau pn mase tu pregnant) we were in Korea, and asikla makan Korean food, kalau x pun Arab restaurant diterjah kat sane, so mase tu maybe sbb dh start rs fatigue and pening2 lalat so now bile sebut makanan arab and korean pn rs kembang tekak. Melayu tu tetap di hati, still suke makan ikan bilis and cili padi, tapi selalu rase teringin nak makan something western, kerjanya asik carik Waffle (Daily Fresh's is the best!!) and satu lagi kepingin pizza, pulak tu xnk makan the simple fast food pizza like Pizza Hut or Dominos (no offence to their fan but I personally think those pizza are nothing but a piece of bread topped with lauk-pauk esp those yang perisa sate la, tom yam la..lemak cili api ade?).

My definition of pizza is always pizza = Italian food thus mesti ade rase strong Italian herbs like oregano and basils and thyme whatnot. And disebabkan once a upon a time pernah plan a lunch date with Anim & Amir, which Anim initially recommended California Pizza Kitchen but later on changed our venue to House of Sundanese Food sebab suami2 kelaparan nasi hehe..And kebetulan pulak mmg nk treat this lovely couple lunch sbb terhutang budi yang amat atas penat lelah Amir pergi airport menyelamatkan my Freestyle pump yang nearly kene custom tax, so we planned a lunch date at CPK last Thursday at KLCC. Xsangka seperti dijangka the pizza was as described in the website, so Italian!! (although the name is California Pizza) Pictures speak a thousand words so they say unfortunately we were too busy berebut2 makan sampai terlupe nak snap pics tau2 dh licin pinggan so these pics are among what we ordered and are extracted from the website so explains the exaggerating texture but worry not coz the real one is about the same!

Thai Crunch Salad..wow sgt sedappp mcm rase Mieng Kam!

The Original Barbeque Chicken Pizza..hubby's choice yg suke BBQ

And we ordered this dessert yg sangat sedap dan sempat diambil gambar:

Punyela sedap pizza die, sampai balik kerja pn masih terasa2 pizza die dalam dinding mulut, and normally balik rumah from work terus dinner, but that day hubby tanye, "xlapar ke?" (sbb die tgk wife die ni relax aje dlm bilik). "Xnak makan bole x nanti rasa pizza ni hilang dr mulut.." I replied hahahah!

And the next day, I had a lunch plan with Tasya n Chura at KLCC, dengan xtau malunye mak yong ngidam ni ajak g CPK tp nak tong-tong sbb xde fulus huhuhu! Nasib baik la my dearest SFs ni sanggup melayan kerenah mak yong sorang ni, thank you darlings I love you soo mucchh mmuaahh!! So serba sedikit yang we ordered:

  

Wild Mushroom Pizza..the other 1 that we ordered smlmnye..

recommended by Anim...oh sedap3!

Portobello Mushroom Ravioli tersgt2 sedapp, a must try!

Also ordered smlmnye but with garlic white sauce pn sgt2 sedapp!

Me with Chura dearie, kenape Chura mesti nmpk chomell?? :p

Me & Tasya dearie..I hate my iPhone camera, it has no flash

so the result is this when you have backlight, thanx to the Flash application,

at least xdela silhouette je like the original one.

Oh BTW, they don't have Tabasco but that sauce bottle in front of us tu, lg sedap dr Tabasco!

Tp ni plg lazat..Key Lime Pie..sebijik nama dalam CafeWorld!

fuhhh terase2 lagi dlm mulut kemasaman+kemanisan+kelemakannye..

Korea Sparkling Part 1

Wahh lega nye boss dh approved my 2 weeks leave for Korea hols~

Kelegaan yg xdpt nk digambarkan dengan kata2..Abang has been pestering me to send my leave form since last week (coz his has been approved), tp bile tgk muke boss yg mendung hari2 tu ketaq lutut chek..takott..

This hol is very special coz 1stly, we'll be touching down on Incheon ground on our 2nd anniversary on the 15th of February. 2ndly, this shall be Afeef's 1st time flying and it will be a long journey for him in the sky! (which makes me nervous too in ensuring him equalizes everytime there're pressure drops). 3rdly, this is my family's 1st time spending long holiday retreat together since I've been married except that it will be much fun if Adam could join us :(

Anyway, Alhamdulillah..hopefully all will run as planned, insyaAllah..

Sempatkah kita?

How time flies. Rasenye dah ckp ayat ni 8 kali dh ke? (Sebab Afeef dah 8 months kn..) Kejap nye anak bujang Mama membesar bagai Johan. Sekejap je nanti anak Mama dah masuk sekolah, sempat ke x mama tgk Afeef masuk sekolah, masuk university and kahwin hanya Allah yg Maha Mengetahui and Maha Penentu segala sesuatu. Tugas kite sebagai hambaNya hanyalah berdoa, moga dipanjangkan umur, moga saat itu dapat dikecapi bersama, Aminn..

Genap Afeef 8 bulan genap la jugak sebulan arwah Uncle Abang meninggalkan dunia yang fana ini at a tender age of 18. Genap jugak 3 minggu Nek Mama meninggalkan dunia menyambut seruan Ilahi at the age of 44. Siapa sangka Afeef xsempat kenal Nek Mama yang selalu memeriahkan suasana rumah dgn gurau sendanya dgn Babah yang disambut leraian tawa the rest of the family, yang beri Afeef t-shirt hitam embroidered with Perth Australia the last time she saw you. Siape sangka Afeef xsempat main PSP and belajar mencontohi Uncle Abang yang xputus2 ayat2 suci al-Quran meniti di bibir setiap waktu walaupun kala bermain PS2 dan x lekang dr senyuman yang suke sgt panggil Afeef, "Muhammaaadd..". Semua ni takdir Allah swt. Mama selalu doa moga Allah panjangkan umur Mama and Babah agar dpt membimbing anak-anak kami dan dapat melihat permata2 kami membesar menjadi insan soleh and solehah...kita hanya mampu berdoa, dan berharap Allah swt perkenankan..Aminn..

Al-Fatihah dan ingatan rindu untuk arwah Moksu and arwah Akmal yang sentiasa amat dirindui..insyaAllah syurga buat kalian yang senantiasa penuh keimanan dan al-Quran di dada Aminn~

Weaning Afeef - Part 3

Happy 10th Birthday to my manja little brother, Imran and a belated wish for my mama on her 48th Birthday! As a double celebration, we've booked for a Buka Puasa at Ancasa Hotel last Saturday that is on Mama's Birthday the 29th August. Susah jugak nk bawak Afeef pergi berbuka kat luar. Afeef is a very active boy, so sitting quietly in a stroller, a bouncer or any confined seats is just not his thing. I wonder how would he finds his new car seat? Entah2 xnak duduk jugak, penat je Babah beli huhu..

Back to the story, as he wants us to carry him (he likes to see the world and absorb as many infos as he could), I had to carry his 8kg being around the buffet area in one arm, while the other arm trying to balance the load of  a ceramic plate yg sgt berat sekali dgn the food loaded on it. Fuhh..mmg bole bermuscle, xpayah susah2 buang duit pegi fitness centre, branak je gerenti bole fit hihi..

Sejak ade anak (baru sorang pun..), there's no such things as having a quiet dinner outside, watching movie peacefully and shopping till hubby drops (hehe!) for hours. When eating outside, it means, makan macam masuk pertandingan makan hotdog, telan je kunyah xpayah, because the time is short and Afeef is crying, no time for savouring the taste of the food. When watching movie, it means, if Afeef shall be around and of course shall nangis out of boredom, bersediala kene kutuk dgn org lain dlm panggung "Apela, bwk baby tgk wayang..bodoh kelubi, dh tau ade anak sibuk nk tgk wayang..duduk je la umah..". When shopping, it means, br masuk 1 kedai Afeef dh start cranky and end up xdpt beli pape and terus balik. Bile fikir xnk bawak Afeef rase guilty pulak sbb mcm keluar enjoy and lupekan anak. So end up bawak jugak. Cume lately je due to H1N1 we didn't bring him out to shopping to minimize the frequencies of him being exposed to the public.

Masuk hari ni, dh 4 hari Afeef x berak. Risaunye Mama..normally Afeef will berak at least twice a day, at most 4-5 times. Banyakkan? Afeef inherits dat (rajin berak, dat is) from Mama and Babah which makes the three of us: Keluarga Berak hehe..

Ramadhan is around the corner

This year my Ramadhan will be different from last year. Last year, for the first time in my life (okay, kat SHAHPekan dulu macam ni jugak tp xdela menghayati sgt sbb kecik lagi huhu kecik sgt..), I had tadarrus every night after tarawikh with Abang's family until 1am and tarawikh would always be at Masjid Taman or sometimes Masjid Kampung Baru.

This year, I have Afeef around to be taken care of. The likelihood of me having a chance to have my Tarawikh at the masjid is a far cry. Unless someone in the house is 'mamnuk' (wow lame dah xckp this word), only then I can go to the masjid. Due to that, I have printed Panduan Solat Tarawikh by Jakim dengan jayanya pakai printer office hehe semangat betul (xpe boss bole dpt pahala ape..). On the other hand, tadarrus at BK house shall be work on. Because Afeef has an adult sleeping pattern, only longer (he sleeps straight from 7pm to 6am next morning and only wakes up when he's hungry and will sleep back while feeding), then I can just put him on Ateh's bed while tadarussing. I am so looking forward to this year's Ramadhan, may this Ramadhan be filled with more Ibadah insyaAllah.

The petite lady with a watermelon attached to her front ;)

Anonymous: Ehh pregnant ek, anak second ke?Me: Err..xla, first... *senyum kelat sbb dh bosan dgn remark yg same evtime*
Everybody keeps on saying my belly was too huge for a first pregnancy. Bile dh ramai sgt yg ckp mcm tu ape x risau nye...harusla sgt risau sbb takut baby too big for me to push him out...dhla last check-up i.e. on the 14th March when i got the false alarm, Dr. Kamsiah lupe nk cek baby's weight haduu...dh bape la berat anak mama nih..
On a lighter note, some people says (including my mama) my belly is small but because of my petite being, my belly looks relatively super big on this cute figure hehehe...that's a good thing to hear. However lately, I keep on getting comments like "Ehhh perut you mcm you letak je bola or belon dlm perut...sbb bdn you x naik, nmpk normal je tp tetibe ade bende bulat kt depan yg mcm out of place", now that can put a big grin on my face ngeheheee...suke aje klu org puji kurus, but wait a sec! Do they actually mean my belly looks too huge?? tsk..
So last Saturday, I get the chance to meet my gynae, Dr. Fatimah. As usual, baring atas ultrascan bed, she will put her hands first on my belly. She instantly blurted out "Whoa.."
Me: Why doctor?
Doctor: Your belly feels very tight..
Me: Which means?
Doctor: I think your baby is quite big coz he's occupying the whole space inside here. Tp xpe, that's just my prediction, let's see what the scan says..
And the scan proved that our baby has reached 3.18kg at his 36 weeks! That's quite big for an Asian baby. Dr. F ask hubby to bring me a lot to shopping so as to encourage me doing a lot of walking. "Biar cepat skit beranak coz if ur baby is still inside in another 2 weeks time, he may reached 3.5kg" kate Dr. F.
I was supposed to diet as advised by Dr. F, "Kurangkan sugar intake, nasi etc. But you can still take obimin, neurogain and calcium as usual coz these 3 are just essential supplements that the baby and you need, they won't make the baby bigger"

So starting this week I take my gynae's advice. I walked everyday to KLCC during lunch time, xde purpose pn saje window shopping sbb nk workout. But I still can't abide to the other advice that is diet! I'm a food lover, always am. Unlike most women, being pregnant doesn't hold me back from being a true food lover that I always am. So chronologically,

Monday: I promised to have just salad but end up buying ayam goreng cold storage yg sgt oily and pasta salad yg sgt hi-carb as well. I failed.

Tuesday: This time I strongly am going to be strict to myself, however went to Isetan Supermarket only to be introduced to Isetan's wider range of salads that are almost 10 types in total and much fresher with good refrigeration system than Cold Storage salads yg selalu rs mcm dh nk basi! Jadi sawan tgk salad fresh yg byk, I end up mixing 5 types of salad namely Broccoli Salad+Fruit Salad+Pasta Salad+Coleslaw Salad+Potato Salad and semua sgt sedapp!! Byk pulak tu I amik, smpi tersandar lps makan. Promised again to myself, ok that's it for today, no more munching in the office, tapiii....tetibe plak nmpk Kak Min the tea lady dlm pantry tgh refill biscuit tins with biskut mayat bergula...my alltime favorite!! Nak jadi cerite hubby at last minute had to stay back to finish up some work..so I end up munching more than 20 biskut mayat bergula while waiting for him aduhh! Hubby was bewildered hearing my terrifying eating habit today so I promised to hubby in the car while on the back that the biskut mayats are gonna be my dinner for tonight, I'm not gonna eat wat mak cook regardless sesedap mane pn...tapiiii....tgk2 Mak masak udang bercili and udang masak lemak peria!! aduhhhh..mkn dgn byk nye siap bertambah smpi Kakngah Zila tegur, "Aishah pregnant selera makan x terbantut ek.."
Erk...dat was the second after Azlee Samad tegur mase kt Ekin's wedding "Aishah makan selera ek pregnant2 pun.." Obvious sgt ke kelahapan ku ini?? huhuhu..I failed again.
Today: I plan to buy the same mixture of salads but of smaller amount cewah...tp tetibe td dpt a call from Krun, my IIUM bosom, yg nk meet up kt KLCC..I think I can picture my lunch today. It's totally gonna be a hi-carb lunch either Polio Italiano at Signature foodcourt or Nasi Goreng Kerabu Petai at Rasa foodcourt...arghhh I'm so gonna fail again!

The Demise of My One and Only Left GrandParent

Friday (27 Feb 2009)

The last time I met her was Hari Raya Puase tahun lepas, itu pun it was a lucky coincidence dat hubby suddenly agreed to balik Kedah 1st then baru balik KL n raya kat Puchong. He agreed pun only when I proposed us to go back 2 hari sblm 1 syawal, then balik KL on the evening of 1st Raya, before dat masing2 xnk kalah...maklum jela, 1st time berhari raya as wedded couple. It was kinda hard for both of us to accept d fact beraye without family by our side...

Nevertheless, I quite regretted for not being my persistent self when we were negotiating about celebrating Hari Raya AidilAdha last December as I gave up d discussion on the basis of Hubby buat Qurban kt Kinrara tahun ni, if not, last Hari Raya Aidilfitri would not be my last union with arwah Tok... (T_T)
Tok dh sakit for a few weeks, but I didnt visit her coz dh sarat now, I'm already 8 months by now..nk travel pn mama x bagi..So bertanye kabar from Ayah n Mama je all dis while until dis morning, when Mama called me saying, "If u wanna see Tok for d last time, I think u better book a flight to Kedah dis weekend..kalau x i takut xsempat..."

I, yg sememangnye mmg lebih berat nk pegi tgk Tok, terus book d 1st flight for d 2 of us tomorrow morning xkisahla tiket mahal ke x..Hubby during lunchtime, terus drove to An-Nur to collect my gynae's approval letter for air travelling of which he has to wait for 2 hours n skipped his lunch plus terpakse solat Jumaat at Masjid Bangi pdhal I've called them very early in the morning to prepare for the letter and told them hubby is coming lunchtime for collection (An-Nur is extremely slow in service, they really have to improve on this)

Malangnye, dat evening, while we were about to have our early dinner at Chili's KLCC, I received a call from Mama saying Tok baru meninggal at 7.20pm, innalillahiwainnailaihirrojiunn...mase tu makanan pn xsampai lagi, I cried through d whole dinner. My Mushroom Fajitas was hardly touched, even Hubby is having a hard time swallowing his Lamb Shoulder seeing me crying non-stop..I felt so regretted, kenape la aku x berkeras nk balik Raya Haji..suddenly I felt dat I really miss her, and I'm gonna miss her forever. ..

Called Adam, he wanted to come back home too..suggested him to take tonight's bus to KL and book the same flight ticket with us tomorrow morning online right away. He did so and his bus is to arrive in Pudu at 4a.m tomorrow morning.


Saturday (28 Feb 2009)

As planned, Adam called us at 4a.m informing his arrival, hubby xnk mandi, but I chose to take a bath 1st sbb dis late pregnancy I'm experiencing rase kepanasan yg amat coz baby has also produced his own body heat. So my body heat + baby's body heat = 1 super hot mama. We drove to KL to fetch Adam, then drove straight to LCTT. Arrived just in time in LCCT for the check-in, dpt pulak mamat check-in counter yg tersgt la sengal, ade ke die nk amik my original copy of doctor's letter n xnk watkan a photocopy for me? ade ke die ckp sepatutnye doktor kene tulis 2 referral letter for pegi n balik? 2 original copy??? die igt gynaes xde keje lain ke nk buat selain tulis surat chenta utk airlines? Tahan die suruh mak buyong yg dh in her 33 weeks pregnancy dgn perut besar nye berjalan satu LCCT pdhal rupenye kt counter selang beberapa counter dr counter die tu ade photostat machine utk photostat mende2 formal mcm my surat doktor.. To my surprise, I was so calm at d moment, maybe I was too pre-occupied dgn kesedihan psl tok kot...so I was not being my alert and impulsive self, ikut je ape die suruh tanpa byk soal. Sampai keras2 perut contraction n rase kepala baby dh nk terkeluar dh berjalan satu LCCT...hubby pn bengang gler..yela, bini die yg dianiaya...isk, sabar je la aku, esok bini mangkuk tu mengandung org buat mcm tu kt bini die baru die tau...beria2 die nk simpan my original copy n ckp kene wat copy sendiri utk bagi kt atas plane and mase check boarding pass...hmmmmm sorang airasia personnel pn xde yg mintak......

Following d mishap with the check-in counter, I said to hubby dat my instinct says something bad is going to happen and we won't make it on time for the funeral. He assured me that it was just my wild imagination. In the plane, hubby dozed off out of exhaustion, poor baby...But I can't sleep a wink, kept on thinking of arwah Tok and regretting for not visiting her for quite a long time, so instead I recite surah Yassin throughout d journey for arwah Tok. As guessed, when the plane was about to land and paddy fields are already visible in close proximity, suddenly the intercom went on. The pilot informed us that the plane couldn't touchdown at the moment due to mist covering the runway and visibility is only 500m, we were to land at Penang Airport and wait till the mist is reported thinning by Alor Star Control Tower. I burst to tears hearing the bad news, and chanting.."I told u soo, I told u soo...I know this is gonna happen.." to hubby. He comforted me and looked so worried..I felt sooo miserable, felt it was a way Allah is punishing me for not seeing arwah Tok for such a long time, now she's gone, I can't still see her no matter how hard I try to make it on time to see her for d last time..i felt cursed.

As soon as the plane touched down in Penang International Airport, hubby and Adam rushed to the cockpit trying to talk things over with the pilot, persuading him not to delay time as we were rushing for a funeral. We were lucky dat the mist did not stay for long. Half an hour later the plane was already ready for take off to Alor Star. We arrived at Alor Star Airport at about 10.30a.m, rushed to the taxi stand. The taxi driver was very kind to drive like crazy and to go by the highway instead of jalan kampung especially when he saw me crying, he looked so concern. When we arrived at Tok's house, relatives have just finished mandikan jenazah..I know deep inside ayah was in grieve and he's among d most affected but Ayah seemed so composed and calm until when pengurus jenazah was about to close Tok's face with kain kapan, I saw dat Ayah couldn't hide his sadness any longer...ayah nampak hiba and sayu sgt, mata ayah start berkaca2 and i saw tears rolling down his cheek. sedih sgt tgk ayah macam tu, Ayah seorang anak yg sgt soleh...xpenah lg jumpe org yg betul2 menatang mak die bagai minyak yang penuh..Tok mintak ape semua dapat..klu ayah xde duit, ayah akan usahakan jugak..janji Tok happy..dulu mase ayah stationed in Korea for LNG projects for 2 years and a half, everytime he got a call from Ngah saying dat Tok is sick, he will immediately be on the 1st plane to Malaysia. Bukan skali, tapi banyak kali...Pdhal Incheon Airport is 5 hours away from our house in Geoje Island. Sampai kn his friends cakap Haji Razak balik tgk mak die macam mak die duduk satu taman je...Ayah selalu ckp, org perempuan kalau dah kawin, kene utamakan suami baru mak ayah...tapi org lelaki, klu dh kawin skalipun mak tetap yg pertama, kedua mak, ketiga mak, keempat baru ayah...seterusnye baru la wife...

I was soo relieved to get the chance to pay my last respect to my beloved Tok. Poor Kakngah..she's so far away and was in grieve alone in Korea...I followed my family to the cemetery for the burial of arwah Tok...semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat, Al-Fatihah...

The Day We Were Officially Belonged To Each Other..

Wake up for Subuh and didn’t sleep back after that. Too much to do and too nervous to continue slumber! Last night I slept at almost 2a.m. Started applying henna on my finger and toe nails only at 1a.m and finish applying at nearly 2am with the help from Kakngah. This morning, when I anxiously opened the wrapping of henna around my nails, I was very disappointed looking at the pale orange colour of my henna. It was not anticipated at all since I was using Makkah henna which I bought during my Umrah visit last year. “Dh masuk angin agaknye..” said 1 of my mom’s disappointed friends. Everybody promptly suggested me to apply the liquid henna (on top of the pale coloured henna) which I was avoiding from the beginning coz the colour is bright only for a few hours after application and later on faded as though you are applying only magic colour on your nails. It was not my favorite at all. But what choice do I have at this last minute? I decided to wait until the wrinkle on my finger skins (due to prolong henna wrapping) to vanish and only then will I apply the liquid henna coz they still hurt. After an hour, the wrinkle starts to disappear and I noticed the pale colour of the henna starts to darken into bright orange. Another hour later, it starts to turn into beautiful reddish orange! I was amazed and also delighted coz I don’t have to resort to the boring liquid henna, hurrah!

The atmosphere was even more hectic today with people (especially my mom) pacing from the kitchen to the buffet table under the porch. I tried to help around but my mom doesn’t allow me to, just like yesterday. “You’re the raja sehari today. Don’t touch anything..it’s your big day..so just watch..” she proclaimed. Wahh..bestnye…betul2 rase mcm raja…jadi mandur ajer dr semlm…bukan senang mama nk bg peluang ceni…hehehe…

Dayana and Tasya came as early as 10 o’clock am dh siap berbaju kurung… my baju nikah belum iron lagi…Dayana la jadi mangsa kene gosokkan…bibik dh sibuk kt dapur tlg Cik Mu. “Esah, aku nk tlg ape?” Tasya eagerly asked.

“Kau ek? Hmm…” me thinking deeply.

“Owh..bole x tlg jahitkan kain nikah aku…butik tu jahit x cukup kemas la die punye renda patches…you just have to jelujur jer…x susah…just to ensure the renda is well intact with my kain.”

“Err…okkaayyy….jelujur tu cene?”

Duhh…I forgot that back in SHAH Pekan, Tasya and Ayu were the only girls who refuse to take Home Science and opt to Pertanian instead, joining all the boys. Hahahaa…no offence dear, but I seriously forgot!

Not long after that, Azlee Samad (my wedding photographer cum Abang’s primary school friend) arrived. Asked him to have breakfast first (prepared by another kind neighbour, Aunty Azizah) and later asked him to make himself at home while waiting for my Make Up Artist to arrive. At about 11am, my Kak Lela TV3 the make–up artist arrived. Asked her to have some breakfast first while I get prepared for the make-up session. At about 11.30am the make-up session starts. Kak Lela was a very nice and very soft-spoken lady. She was kind enough to share some make-up tips with my sister and friends while doing my face. And she was a real expert. True as Kak Siti claimed, she made over people’s face as though our face is only a piece of canvas and she’s Leonardo Da Vinci. She doesn’t even need full concentration as she could chattered away with me and everybody in the room while doing my face! And the result was super gorgeous. Even Azlee Samad admitted it.

Today was Friday, so the men including the wedding photog had to go for Jumaat prayer. So he couldn’t capture the moments while my face was been done. He arrived back at about 2.15pm while I was about to put on my tudung. At nearly 3 o’clock, I went downstairs straight to the pelamin to get ready for the Nikah ceremony. The Tok Kadi was already at the living hall with Ayah and all my relatives and Abang’s family. I saw abang and he looked soo drop dead gorgeous in his Nikah baju melayu complete with his Songkok yang tinggi. And he looked quite nervous too taking deep breath a few times pretty obviously hehe…I was quite calm. And the procession went on quite well. At exactly 4.02 pm my watch, Abang lafaz akad sekali lafaz sahaja and we were officially husband and wife..Alhamdulillah.

A Day Before My Big Day...

Today’s Valentine’s Day, for those who celebrate it. As for me, I never celebrate today coz was exposed with the fact that Valentine’s Day is related to the St. Valentine of Catholic whatsoever’s death or whatnot, I dunno, don’t even care to know. Anyway, being a true Muslim, I shall not celebrate it. Period.

Anyhoo, my nikah nearly falls on today due to some circumstances. Luckily, at the end of the conclusion, both parties (my family and his) have agreed to set the nikah ceremony tomorrow after Jumaat prayer.

Kak Siti the Wedding Planner is coming this afternoon to set up the Nikah pelamin and send my hantaran that she had designed for tomorrow. But I have other plans and can’t be at home at that time. I need to find my nikah scarf at Jalan TAR! Kalau x, xbertudung aje la saye esok…no way jose…

The first place me and abang headed to was the Jakel. Finding the tudungs that perfectly match my wedding dresses was harder than I thought! Berpeluh2 jugak la minah perfectionist sorang nih hehehe..searching for the exact colour high and low. I was lucky coz everybody was very helpful in Jakel and abang especially, was extremely patient.. While I was contemplating on one scarf which I thought was the closest match to my nikah dress, 1 salesgirl said to me, “xpela kak, akak beli je yg ni..pastu akak bwk balik..kalau akak rase warna die mcm akak xkenan or xsame..akak dtg balik tukar dgn yg lain..”

“Xbole dik…akak nk nikah esok ni..”

Chorusly all the salesgirls there gasped in disbelieve. Hahahaa.. What to do, baju bersanding pn baru dpt semalam.. *sigh*

2^nd place was the Gulati’s. The same procedure like at the Jakel went on again and this time was even harder coz my baju bersanding at the hall is peachy brown in colour so the colour was not so universal and to find the closest match was much troublesome. In the end, I chose a color that is light brown but can go with my peach dress.

Arrived home just in time. Kak Siti and team pn baru sampai. Kak Yanti, her assistant was busy amending my hantaran’s deco. While Kak Siti and her sister and her male workers were about to set up the Nikah pelamin. Mama, Cik Mu and her other friends were busy packaging some kerepek given by my kind neighbours especially for my wedding. The atmosphere was very cheerful and busy. Smells of fresh flowers filled up the whole house. Here’s some pics of the preparation. I’m so excited!

Happy 25th Birthday to me, weee.... :D

It's my birthday today and i feel so blissful and joyful, weee....it's my 1st birthday and will be the only birthday, insyaAllah, as someone's fiancee..*blush* received lots of smses and friendster comments and wishes, thanks guys for remembering..luv y'all mmuaachhs!! and a pair of baju kurung from my kak ngah during sahur, yes, the one i'm wearing in the pic...it was superduper gorgeous, the material of the cloth was very comfy and heavy..later did i know that that kain was kain benang hitam, the in-thing, so they say..she gave me that gorgeous baju kurung because she pitied me for not having many and keep on rotating what i have (baju kurung is the topic of course..) from my uni days..seriously, come to think of it, yes, all my kurungs and kebayas are made from kain given by others (by my father mostly) and i have never bought one by myself...

blossoms for miss bliss from mr. make-my-life-blissful a.k.a kekanda. thank you sayang...xoxo