Amalia's 1st step and 4th tooth!

My poohbear Ama'ia officially can walk by herself at 1years old! :))

Yesterday was Deepavali hol so I was at home with my kids tidying up the ever messy room, while Ama'ia was busy playing the cds at the tv shelf with Along Afeef. Suddenly I saw her trying to reach for the bed, and when she failed, she took a step forward, still can't reach for the bed so she took another step with a struggling frown on her face and she finally get hold of the bedside after the 3rd step. I immediately applauded for her great effort and achievement, and she smiled sheepishly and excitedly sbb berjaya showing of her 3+1 teeth yg baru tumbuh yesterday too!

Amalia's 1st Birthday - The Prep

As usual, kalau ade rezeki lebih sikit (Alhamdulillah..), 3D birthday cake and helium balloons are a must for mama. I'm the kind of person who appreciate beautiful and artsy things to the max. So that explains the 3D cake, and there's a huuuge childish side of myself that wanting so much and luuurve cute things and toys a lot! In fact, most of the time I bought toys for my kids because it is ME who wanted them hihi, anyways, I luurve cute balloons as much!! :D

So in the morning, we went to Kak Zurin's house in Putrajaya to fetch the beautifully made cute Winnie the Pooh cake, which due to Mama's busy being in the kitchen preparing the food i.e. Mee bandung muar, nasi ayam, mashed potatoes with gravy, coleslaw and bbq chicken, cake cantek itu telah dikerjakn oleh my darlings before sempat diambil gambar sobsob! TT

Late that evening, about 6pm sempat lagi went to Giant to buy mineral water and incomplete groceries for the party & plan to go to BalloonBz Taipan to buy the helium balloon, nasib baik surf the website to look for Taipan's phone no. & found Bdr Puteri branch instead, lega! Kalau pergi Taipan, alamat isya' br birthday girl sampai rumah huhu.

We were so glad to find the Bdr Puteri branch, 1stly, because it is so near to home. 2ndly, they tied up the balloons the correct way so as not to entangled them unlike Taipan's (we spent a good 15min detangling cutting the strings the 25 balloons on Afeef's 2nd bday!) and 3rdly, they blew the balloons to their max allowable size unlike Taipan who blew them unattractively small. Nasib baik order 50 only, as our car can only fit 50 balloons. Thank you Babah for being so understanding and supportive of your childish wife, you complete me mmuachhs! Just look at how delighted Amalia is looking at her 50 pink balloons! As excited as her Mama, that's my girl... (^.^)

Amalia 8 months old

1) Starts to show signs nk merangkak i.e. angkat punggung tinggi like doing london bridge, lepas tu buat crawling position and goyang2 punggung..menyulur combat style makin laju, xbole tinggal atas katil sekejap aje dh smpi tebing. For the record, dah banyak kali jatuh katil..just like along Afeef.
2) Makin lincah bermain, cepat aje mata die nampak barang, cepat aje capai and kalau x dapat berusaha dalam senyap sampai dapat. Tangkas jugak Amalia ni dalam kelembutan die tu.. :)
3) Makin banyak babbling...almost every waking hours babbles "Bababababaahh..", "Atatatatataaaaa!". Becok macam Along Afeef jugak ni. Boleh tahan nyaring suara dia. (mama, as usual x pandai lagi sebut TT)
4) Lepas tu suke sgt 'geram' nowadays, muke sweet innocent tibe2 menjerit, "Aaaaaaahh! Ahh!!!" sambil keras2 kan badan kegeraman, people around selalu terkejut.
5) Dah pandai pinching her telunjuk n thumb bile nk ambil something. Yang kelakar tu, she likes to aim the thing that she wants to pick with her thumb and pointing finger from afar sampai la jari2 die smpi to the object. Sangat cute, melentik2 jari die nak aim. She doesn't like to grab with all fingers but pinch, even Mama's spectacles pn die nk pinch mcm la my spec ni sebesar butir nasi hihi~
6) pandai main agah2 as in dah tau suspense and feeling nervous..suke sangat bile Mama buat2 ala2 Jaws, dtg slow2 dr jauh and makin dekat makin laju, melompat2 punggung n kaki die nervous.
7) sgt particular, kalau mama dah balik jangan harap la die nk abis kan EBM yang dh rendam. Dicampaknye botol tu. Nak yg direct. Air masak ke, air milo ke pun xnak kalau mama ade..die larikan muke die kalau kite sua ke mulut die.

AMBIGUOUS LUMP

Setiap nikmat yang diturunkan Allah swt pasti disertai ujian xkira besar atau kecil. Ujian itu tanda sayangnya Allah swt pada makhluk-Nya. Jika hidup penuh dengan nikmat memanjang, manusia senang alpa pada sang Pencipta yang Maha Esa. Sungguh, terasa berat di bahu dugaan sebegini, tapi bile mengenangkan orang yang lebih besar ujian dan lebih malang hidupnya, terasa amat bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi yang Maha Besar lagi Berkuasa sekurang2nya ujian yang ku terima cumalah kecil, cukup untuk membuatkan diri ini sentiasa teringatkan-Nya dan sentiasa teringin mendekati-Nya, di mana lagi tempat mengadu yang setia Maha Mendengar lagi Maha Mengasihani kalau bukan Allah Azzawajalla..

Dulu mase Afeef about Amalia's age, pun ade lump tapi at armpit i.e. the common place for lumps to occur, where the lymph nodes are. Doc suspected it was due to the TB virus from the BCG jab. Though it didn't reduced in size after antibiotic treatment, it did not get any larger therefore the doc advised to us to leave it there as it will get smaller relative to the growth of the body. The lump remain there under his arm until he was 1 year and a half, suddenly it gets bigger and the size was prominently big and immediately developed into a bisul and burst, and now the lump is gone.

When Amalia's BCG dah start bernanah at 1mths old, I started to check her armpit everyday, paranoid that the lump problem will happen to her too. Everyday time mandi, mesti raba her left armpit, where the BCG is. Syukur Alhamdulillah it was never there. At the age of 3 months tibe2 I discovered a small lump on her shoulder near her armpit. I was not worried at first coz I thought it was just like her Along's. But when all docs that I met said that it was uncommon to have a lump there I was soo upset. Even more upsetting when the ultrasound scan confirmed that it was neither lymphnode nor a cyst. It was a solid therefore they're worried if it is actually the "Big T". Therefore ambiguity. The 1st time it was discovered, it can't be seen by naked eye. Only can be felt by touching it. Later xpegang pun dh bole nampak but only when xpakai baju, and as of yesterday, over her shirt pn dah bole nampak the lump.. :((

And due to ambiguity, besides the lump does get bigger day by day, she was referred to a Paediatric Surgeon in Tawakkal Hospital. So we went to see the Paediatric Surgeon last Tuesday. Berat hati Mama and Babah nak decide, coz hanya Allah Maha Mengetahui what's the best for our precious daughter. After much contemplation, discussion, berdoa banyak2 pada Allah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Mengasihani agar memberi petunjuk ape yang terbaik untuk our Amalia, finally we decided on putting her in a surgery to remove the lump.

The lump is shown in the white box near her armpit

The surgery is scheduled tomorrow, Friday the 4th at 10am. Doctor asked to puasakan Amalia 4hours prior surgery. Ya Allah, tabahkanlah hati hamba-Mu yang lemah ini, sembuhkanlah anak kami segera, semoga surgery esok berjalan lancar dan selamat tanpa sebarang complication, semoga lump itu tidak membahayakan anak kami Amalia Ahza, kuatkanlah anak kami Amalia Ahza, semoga badannya yang kecil itu kuat menerima bius yang bakal diberikan dan semoga badan yang kecil itu kuat melawan sakit..amin ya rabbal alamin.. :(( :((

 Amalia sayang, be strong my dearest..Mama sentiasa doakan kesejahteraan anak Mama..

Milestone: Afeef 1yr 10mth old & Amalia 3mth 2wks old

Dulu mase Afeef rajin sikit update his milestone,sejak ade dua anak, bukan malas, tp sebab byk sgt perkara to update terus bingung & x update...haih..

Well, to start with, Afeef is 1 yr 10 mths old, byk betul dh pandai mengajuk kte ckp. Indahnya Iman pn die dh bole hafal cume butir2 sebutan tu xbape clear. Pandai ckp Bye, Akum (assalamualaikum), sgt friendly kalau jumpe org esp org baru akan angkat tgn sambil ckp Hi! and bile nk pegi ckp Bye! pulak, suke baca alfatihah tp part "Waladdholliiin...Amin" aje sebutan die clear. Bole fhm instructions very well like sit down, take Mama's phone, cry (he'll pretend to cry too), wait (when i said to him wait first he'll sambung ATEE? as in OK? coz sometimes I like to say "wait ok?", no, come and eat, let's take bath he'll go to the bathroom straight and wait for me at the door, InsyaAllah by 2 yrs old Afeef dh bole construct full sentence ye syg..amin..pandai rimas, i.e. when we say lets take bath terus meluru ke toilet walaupun in the midst of doing something interesting, and especially when diaper dh berat. Xsuke diaper berat, sejak dpt adik, dah many times bile diaper berat he'll tarik2 sampai koyak and open it by himself as in lorotkan on the floor and run around bottomless! Tak pandai sebut huruf L tapi pandai sebut ALLAH really well, alhamdulillah! Sgt suke Maher Zain, obviously when a child likes Indahnya Iman, sbb after azan mesti ade lagu Maher Zain. Afeef sgt suke nyanyi nowadays, asik la humming and singing tp xdgr butir just the melody. Paling favorite is, "InchaAllah..InchaAllah..." siap macam tarik nafas dulu and penuh semangat nyanyi dgn high pitch siap kening kerut2...kelakar la anak mama ni kihkihkih! 

Amalia dh pandai pusing mengiring and dh tunjuk tanda2 nk pandai meniarap sejak masuk 3mths old, tp up till now belum bole lagi, xpe syg..take ur time..ikut normal milestone chart pn 4-5mths br start meniarap. She's a friendly baby just like her Along too suke senyum n ketawa bile org dtg tgk, but Amalia is friendlier in the sense that, die memang muke senyum. Duduk diam2 sorang2 pn senyum aje, girl agaknye. Dah pandai melekek2 ketawa sejak masuk 3mths old, the 1st time was with Babah. Babah borak2 dgn die tibe2 die ketawa melekek2 dgn kuat sampai semua org toleh (malam sebelum her majlis akikah). Dah start tgk tgn from 2mths old. Masuk je 3mths terus pandai tgk tgn and masukkan dlm mulut. Start 3 mths jugak dh kenal org, bile nampak Mama buat suara nk susu "eh..eh..eh..". Mase her Aqiqah i.e. wedding Alan, she was playing with me on the bed. Tibe2 her Che tarik her to different direction and facing her Che instead and ckp, "asik main dgn mama je, meh main dgn che pulak.." Terus nangis sambil kepala toleh2 tgk Mama. Sejak tu, when I gave her to someone else, her Che or Bibik or Mama Ngah, die akan diam mula2. But once she heard my voice, try pusing ke arah my voice and terus cebik and nangis sekuat hati. And bile Mama amik balik, mcm ade switch button, terus diam nangis. Manja Mama ni, selain Mama only Babah can hold him without her crying unless nk susu.

Forever a protective brother.