Amalia 8 months old

1) Starts to show signs nk merangkak i.e. angkat punggung tinggi like doing london bridge, lepas tu buat crawling position and goyang2 punggung..menyulur combat style makin laju, xbole tinggal atas katil sekejap aje dh smpi tebing. For the record, dah banyak kali jatuh katil..just like along Afeef.
2) Makin lincah bermain, cepat aje mata die nampak barang, cepat aje capai and kalau x dapat berusaha dalam senyap sampai dapat. Tangkas jugak Amalia ni dalam kelembutan die tu.. :)
3) Makin banyak babbling...almost every waking hours babbles "Bababababaahh..", "Atatatatataaaaa!". Becok macam Along Afeef jugak ni. Boleh tahan nyaring suara dia. (mama, as usual x pandai lagi sebut TT)
4) Lepas tu suke sgt 'geram' nowadays, muke sweet innocent tibe2 menjerit, "Aaaaaaahh! Ahh!!!" sambil keras2 kan badan kegeraman, people around selalu terkejut.
5) Dah pandai pinching her telunjuk n thumb bile nk ambil something. Yang kelakar tu, she likes to aim the thing that she wants to pick with her thumb and pointing finger from afar sampai la jari2 die smpi to the object. Sangat cute, melentik2 jari die nak aim. She doesn't like to grab with all fingers but pinch, even Mama's spectacles pn die nk pinch mcm la my spec ni sebesar butir nasi hihi~
6) pandai main agah2 as in dah tau suspense and feeling nervous..suke sangat bile Mama buat2 ala2 Jaws, dtg slow2 dr jauh and makin dekat makin laju, melompat2 punggung n kaki die nervous.
7) sgt particular, kalau mama dah balik jangan harap la die nk abis kan EBM yang dh rendam. Dicampaknye botol tu. Nak yg direct. Air masak ke, air milo ke pun xnak kalau mama ade..die larikan muke die kalau kite sua ke mulut die.

Afeef 2 yrs old Milestone

Dah besar anak mama ni, everytime balik kerja, ade je new words or sentence yg Mama dengar from anak bujang mama ni.

Word/Sentence Jumble:
1) Ataghfiullahalajiiim (upon seeing a mishap, bile adik did something wrong pn he'll call me and point to his sister smbil ckp astaghfirullah)
2) Yay2 dah balik (bile mamababah balik kerja)
3) Dah tapai yay (ni dh lame dh Afeef pandai, Babah ajar)
4) Ya Allaahhh (when he saw a mishap)
5) Sini..sinila (if he wants something)
6) Djiamla (he got it from his Atok T.T)
7) Tepila (also from his Atok T.T)
8) Ceppet (Cepat)
9) Kejjiep jee (kejap je, if he wants something, normally coupled with ceppet)
10) Shoes
11) shipper (slipper)
12) Adik
13) Amalia
14) Air
15) Eat
16) Ship (sleep)
17) Akiit (sakit)
18) Amak! (Alamak)
19) Tolong...tolong.. (sambil buat gaya helpless..baru smlm die dpt ni)
20) Akum (Assalamualaikum)
21) hakkyu (thank you)
22) ekem (u'r welcome)
23) eit (wait..sambil buat hand sign to wait)
24) count 1-20 (but 1-10 perfectly, 11-20 skip2)
25) ABC to Z
26) nyanyi buai aju2, apai kok ne, ape ayam aju, utum nge nine..
27) nyanyi tinkle2 little tar, aw i onder atchu are..up a world ape te i..smpi abis..
28) count atu uwe ige empet ime annam ujuh appan selilan spuloh!



Sangat suke berzikir/berselawat Alhamdulillah, siap bole zikir dr awal smpi habis, in fact Babah pn segan coz he himself x hafal. Yang xtahan tu mane part kene tarik suara, Afeef akan tarik siap keluar2 urat leher and muke penuh semangat. He will berzikir almost every waking minute, in the car, sambil tgk cartoon, tgh makan, tgh main toys, tgh main with cousins, tgh mandi, tgh cebok uk-uk pun berzikir! InsyaAllah anak mama jadi al-Hafiz amin ya rabb..Antara yg Afeef dh pandai:
1) Solatullah salamullah..
2) Astaghfirullah rabbal baraya..
3) Asmaul husna
4) Surah al-Ikhlas
5) Surah Al-Fatihah
6) Hasbi rabbi jalallah..
7) Lailahaillallah halmalikul haqqul mubin..
8) Subhanallah walhamdulillah..
9) Doa khatam Al-Quran: Allahummarhamna bilquran..
10) Nasyid Tuhanku aku tidakla layak untuk syurgamu
11) almost all lagu Maher Zain
12) Ya Nabi Salam Alaika..
13) Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Sebab die pelat lagi, my big challenge is to try to figure out what is he singing/berzikir..and when I finally get the vague wordings and perfect tone, I will berzikir together with him, and he'll smile satisfactorily, if otherwise, he will hushed me to keep quiet coz I got it wrong!

Guilty

Yes, bukan lagu Westlife. This is a story about my 2 yrs & 1 mth old son, Ahmad Afeef Ahza.

Babah is now in Sipadan for a diving trip with his Perasan Bujang group (haha!) until Wednesday. So I took this shining golden opportunity to stay at my parent's in BSP until then. Yesterday, Afeef had a very heavy breakfast, celik mata je his Chek suap donut 1 1/2 biji, then a bottle of milk, followed by 1/2 roti canai. Dek kekenyangan ya amat, he climbed up the bed lying beside his sister yg tgh mkn kaki (belum ye, lmbt lg die nk dpt adik), while I was making another bottle of milk since he looked so sleepy.

When I came back into the room, I noticed him lying with a comforter covering him and Amalia up to the chest and I said, "Alalala bijaknye anak Mama, baiknye baring dgn adik siap berselimut. As I entered d room, I smelled something foul and instantly said, "eh ape bau muntah ni??" and start sniffing my 2 kids while Amalia is still munching her foot and Afeef lying straight looking at me with a straight blank expression. The foul smell is nearby but I was positive that it was not on my kids clothes.

As I was sniffing somewhere else trying to find the source, suddenly Afeef gotten up from his lying place and my sharp eagle eyes spotted that he was lying on a heap of blankets and I saw something wet and brownish beneath the blankets heap, immediately it struck my mind that my 2 year old son is trying to hide his vomit by putting all the blankets on the spew, lying on top of the heap and cover his body to his chest with a comforter, and that straight blank face was actually a face of terror that I might spank him if I discovered the truth.

Terus I hug him and kiss him repeatedly sambil ckp, "kesian anak mama, sakit perut ke syg? Kesiiaann die...mama xmarah, don't worry sayang..let me clean up the mess..come with me, let me wash you.."

MasyaAllah, I have mixed feelings:
1stly; Felt like crying out of guilt, coz I've made him scared of me for something he shouldn't be scared of. 2ndly; Amazed by his quick action to save himself, at the age of 2, coz I've only been away from
him for 5mins, subhanallah!

3rdly; I was sad that my son couldn't be transparent with me coz I like to scold him whenever he did something wrong, and sekali dua pernah naik tgn sbb geram sgt,Astaghfirullahaladziim serik lps tu n kesal xkesudahan!
4thly; wahhh penatnye rs nk kene basuh all d blankets and the vomit spot on the bed, instead of only the spot, serve me right..

When Babah called, I told everything that just happened. "Alahai..anak Babah.." sayu suara Babah mengeluh...sebak Mama..

Anak Mama sayang, thank you for making me realized my mistake in educating you, I promise not to spank you until you are big enough to understand and know how to reason out things. By then you will understand that Mama will only be angry if you did something bad purposely or degil ckp mama, Something bad that is beyond your control like vomit will not make me angry..Mama saayyyaanggg anak2 mama..mmuacchs3!

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PRS: Pengaruh Rakan Sebaya

Bukan pembimbing rakan sebaya ya..It's kinda hard to raise your kids when you are a working mum. We tried our best to nurture good values like, salam org tua, say sorry, say thank you, don't shout, don't kick people, don't put your feet on people, talk nicely. But when you are a working mom, your kids spent 8hours with other people, be it your maid or at nursery and only 3hours with us. Kalau overtime balik lambat silap2 xsempat jumpe sbb dh tido as in my case coz Afeef budak sekolah tido on time 9.30pm.

Dulu Afeef budak yang sgt baik, sgt well-behaved coz we tried as much as we could to nurture all the good values. Tapi sejak dh pandai berkawan with the cousins and spent almost 8hrs x 5days = 40hours in their room, he now behaves if not totally, pretty much like them too. Sedih bile my Kakngah cakap, "Kaklong, aku tgk Afeef skarang dh mcm perangai F, semalam tibe2 die tendang Fwz..terkejut Fwz sbb dulu Afeef x macam tu..."

Sedih..sedihhh..bukan sedih kakngah ckp mcm tu, sbb she was just telling because she herself is worried too..tapi sedih bile kite cube didik anak perkara yang elok tp kerana rakan sekeliling berperangai the total opposite, he followed them instead.

Ini baru 2tahun, mcm nila rupenye perasaan parents about the friends that their kids chose. Ya Allah, semoga anak kami bijak memilih kawan yang baik, yang soleh, yang mengundang kepada perkara kebaikan amin ya rabbalamin.. 

Happy 2nd Birthday my dearest boy Ahmad Afeef Ahza!

My dearest son, Mama doakan anak mama membesar menjadi insan yang soleh, tinggi pekerti, taat pada perintah Allah swt, taat pada Mama n Babah, seorang anak dan abang yang bertanggungjawab dan menjadi contoh yang cemerlang kepada adik2, penyabar dan xsuke marah2, rajin belajar dan jadi seorang Muslim yang berjaya dunia akhirat amin ya rabbal alamin..Happy 2nd Birthday sayang..Mama n Babah saaaaaayanggg sgt2 Ahmad Afeef Ahza...

Tender

Tender of resignation not tenderloin haha!

I didn't know it'll be this hard, maklum saje saye seorg yg setia
5tahun bercinte dgn only 1 company.

Malam semlm susah tdo, rs resah aje, hubby gelakkn geli hati la sgt
tgk org 1st time nk resign xkeruan.

1 hari at office resah today, boss buat lawak pn kaku je susah gelak.
Serbasalah, last week dh cuti seminggu, naik2 keje nk resign, mcm wat
salah je rase, soalannye: salah ke bertindak demi mase depan anak2?

Hehehe..so long ULTes, so long engineering design field..this is a
huge step I'm making, I'm changing my careerpath..I hope it's the
right one..amin ya rabb~

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AMBIGUOUS LUMP

Setiap nikmat yang diturunkan Allah swt pasti disertai ujian xkira besar atau kecil. Ujian itu tanda sayangnya Allah swt pada makhluk-Nya. Jika hidup penuh dengan nikmat memanjang, manusia senang alpa pada sang Pencipta yang Maha Esa. Sungguh, terasa berat di bahu dugaan sebegini, tapi bile mengenangkan orang yang lebih besar ujian dan lebih malang hidupnya, terasa amat bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi yang Maha Besar lagi Berkuasa sekurang2nya ujian yang ku terima cumalah kecil, cukup untuk membuatkan diri ini sentiasa teringatkan-Nya dan sentiasa teringin mendekati-Nya, di mana lagi tempat mengadu yang setia Maha Mendengar lagi Maha Mengasihani kalau bukan Allah Azzawajalla..

Dulu mase Afeef about Amalia's age, pun ade lump tapi at armpit i.e. the common place for lumps to occur, where the lymph nodes are. Doc suspected it was due to the TB virus from the BCG jab. Though it didn't reduced in size after antibiotic treatment, it did not get any larger therefore the doc advised to us to leave it there as it will get smaller relative to the growth of the body. The lump remain there under his arm until he was 1 year and a half, suddenly it gets bigger and the size was prominently big and immediately developed into a bisul and burst, and now the lump is gone.

When Amalia's BCG dah start bernanah at 1mths old, I started to check her armpit everyday, paranoid that the lump problem will happen to her too. Everyday time mandi, mesti raba her left armpit, where the BCG is. Syukur Alhamdulillah it was never there. At the age of 3 months tibe2 I discovered a small lump on her shoulder near her armpit. I was not worried at first coz I thought it was just like her Along's. But when all docs that I met said that it was uncommon to have a lump there I was soo upset. Even more upsetting when the ultrasound scan confirmed that it was neither lymphnode nor a cyst. It was a solid therefore they're worried if it is actually the "Big T". Therefore ambiguity. The 1st time it was discovered, it can't be seen by naked eye. Only can be felt by touching it. Later xpegang pun dh bole nampak but only when xpakai baju, and as of yesterday, over her shirt pn dah bole nampak the lump.. :((

And due to ambiguity, besides the lump does get bigger day by day, she was referred to a Paediatric Surgeon in Tawakkal Hospital. So we went to see the Paediatric Surgeon last Tuesday. Berat hati Mama and Babah nak decide, coz hanya Allah Maha Mengetahui what's the best for our precious daughter. After much contemplation, discussion, berdoa banyak2 pada Allah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Mengasihani agar memberi petunjuk ape yang terbaik untuk our Amalia, finally we decided on putting her in a surgery to remove the lump.

The lump is shown in the white box near her armpit

The surgery is scheduled tomorrow, Friday the 4th at 10am. Doctor asked to puasakan Amalia 4hours prior surgery. Ya Allah, tabahkanlah hati hamba-Mu yang lemah ini, sembuhkanlah anak kami segera, semoga surgery esok berjalan lancar dan selamat tanpa sebarang complication, semoga lump itu tidak membahayakan anak kami Amalia Ahza, kuatkanlah anak kami Amalia Ahza, semoga badannya yang kecil itu kuat menerima bius yang bakal diberikan dan semoga badan yang kecil itu kuat melawan sakit..amin ya rabbal alamin.. :(( :((

 Amalia sayang, be strong my dearest..Mama sentiasa doakan kesejahteraan anak Mama..