Guilty

Yes, bukan lagu Westlife. This is a story about my 2 yrs & 1 mth old son, Ahmad Afeef Ahza.

Babah is now in Sipadan for a diving trip with his Perasan Bujang group (haha!) until Wednesday. So I took this shining golden opportunity to stay at my parent's in BSP until then. Yesterday, Afeef had a very heavy breakfast, celik mata je his Chek suap donut 1 1/2 biji, then a bottle of milk, followed by 1/2 roti canai. Dek kekenyangan ya amat, he climbed up the bed lying beside his sister yg tgh mkn kaki (belum ye, lmbt lg die nk dpt adik), while I was making another bottle of milk since he looked so sleepy.

When I came back into the room, I noticed him lying with a comforter covering him and Amalia up to the chest and I said, "Alalala bijaknye anak Mama, baiknye baring dgn adik siap berselimut. As I entered d room, I smelled something foul and instantly said, "eh ape bau muntah ni??" and start sniffing my 2 kids while Amalia is still munching her foot and Afeef lying straight looking at me with a straight blank expression. The foul smell is nearby but I was positive that it was not on my kids clothes.

As I was sniffing somewhere else trying to find the source, suddenly Afeef gotten up from his lying place and my sharp eagle eyes spotted that he was lying on a heap of blankets and I saw something wet and brownish beneath the blankets heap, immediately it struck my mind that my 2 year old son is trying to hide his vomit by putting all the blankets on the spew, lying on top of the heap and cover his body to his chest with a comforter, and that straight blank face was actually a face of terror that I might spank him if I discovered the truth.

Terus I hug him and kiss him repeatedly sambil ckp, "kesian anak mama, sakit perut ke syg? Kesiiaann die...mama xmarah, don't worry sayang..let me clean up the mess..come with me, let me wash you.."

MasyaAllah, I have mixed feelings:
1stly; Felt like crying out of guilt, coz I've made him scared of me for something he shouldn't be scared of. 2ndly; Amazed by his quick action to save himself, at the age of 2, coz I've only been away from
him for 5mins, subhanallah!

3rdly; I was sad that my son couldn't be transparent with me coz I like to scold him whenever he did something wrong, and sekali dua pernah naik tgn sbb geram sgt,Astaghfirullahaladziim serik lps tu n kesal xkesudahan!
4thly; wahhh penatnye rs nk kene basuh all d blankets and the vomit spot on the bed, instead of only the spot, serve me right..

When Babah called, I told everything that just happened. "Alahai..anak Babah.." sayu suara Babah mengeluh...sebak Mama..

Anak Mama sayang, thank you for making me realized my mistake in educating you, I promise not to spank you until you are big enough to understand and know how to reason out things. By then you will understand that Mama will only be angry if you did something bad purposely or degil ckp mama, Something bad that is beyond your control like vomit will not make me angry..Mama saayyyaanggg anak2 mama..mmuacchs3!

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