Tender

Tender of resignation not tenderloin haha!

I didn't know it'll be this hard, maklum saje saye seorg yg setia
5tahun bercinte dgn only 1 company.

Malam semlm susah tdo, rs resah aje, hubby gelakkn geli hati la sgt
tgk org 1st time nk resign xkeruan.

1 hari at office resah today, boss buat lawak pn kaku je susah gelak.
Serbasalah, last week dh cuti seminggu, naik2 keje nk resign, mcm wat
salah je rase, soalannye: salah ke bertindak demi mase depan anak2?

Hehehe..so long ULTes, so long engineering design field..this is a
huge step I'm making, I'm changing my careerpath..I hope it's the
right one..amin ya rabb~

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AMBIGUOUS LUMP

Setiap nikmat yang diturunkan Allah swt pasti disertai ujian xkira besar atau kecil. Ujian itu tanda sayangnya Allah swt pada makhluk-Nya. Jika hidup penuh dengan nikmat memanjang, manusia senang alpa pada sang Pencipta yang Maha Esa. Sungguh, terasa berat di bahu dugaan sebegini, tapi bile mengenangkan orang yang lebih besar ujian dan lebih malang hidupnya, terasa amat bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi yang Maha Besar lagi Berkuasa sekurang2nya ujian yang ku terima cumalah kecil, cukup untuk membuatkan diri ini sentiasa teringatkan-Nya dan sentiasa teringin mendekati-Nya, di mana lagi tempat mengadu yang setia Maha Mendengar lagi Maha Mengasihani kalau bukan Allah Azzawajalla..

Dulu mase Afeef about Amalia's age, pun ade lump tapi at armpit i.e. the common place for lumps to occur, where the lymph nodes are. Doc suspected it was due to the TB virus from the BCG jab. Though it didn't reduced in size after antibiotic treatment, it did not get any larger therefore the doc advised to us to leave it there as it will get smaller relative to the growth of the body. The lump remain there under his arm until he was 1 year and a half, suddenly it gets bigger and the size was prominently big and immediately developed into a bisul and burst, and now the lump is gone.

When Amalia's BCG dah start bernanah at 1mths old, I started to check her armpit everyday, paranoid that the lump problem will happen to her too. Everyday time mandi, mesti raba her left armpit, where the BCG is. Syukur Alhamdulillah it was never there. At the age of 3 months tibe2 I discovered a small lump on her shoulder near her armpit. I was not worried at first coz I thought it was just like her Along's. But when all docs that I met said that it was uncommon to have a lump there I was soo upset. Even more upsetting when the ultrasound scan confirmed that it was neither lymphnode nor a cyst. It was a solid therefore they're worried if it is actually the "Big T". Therefore ambiguity. The 1st time it was discovered, it can't be seen by naked eye. Only can be felt by touching it. Later xpegang pun dh bole nampak but only when xpakai baju, and as of yesterday, over her shirt pn dah bole nampak the lump.. :((

And due to ambiguity, besides the lump does get bigger day by day, she was referred to a Paediatric Surgeon in Tawakkal Hospital. So we went to see the Paediatric Surgeon last Tuesday. Berat hati Mama and Babah nak decide, coz hanya Allah Maha Mengetahui what's the best for our precious daughter. After much contemplation, discussion, berdoa banyak2 pada Allah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Mengasihani agar memberi petunjuk ape yang terbaik untuk our Amalia, finally we decided on putting her in a surgery to remove the lump.

The lump is shown in the white box near her armpit

The surgery is scheduled tomorrow, Friday the 4th at 10am. Doctor asked to puasakan Amalia 4hours prior surgery. Ya Allah, tabahkanlah hati hamba-Mu yang lemah ini, sembuhkanlah anak kami segera, semoga surgery esok berjalan lancar dan selamat tanpa sebarang complication, semoga lump itu tidak membahayakan anak kami Amalia Ahza, kuatkanlah anak kami Amalia Ahza, semoga badannya yang kecil itu kuat menerima bius yang bakal diberikan dan semoga badan yang kecil itu kuat melawan sakit..amin ya rabbal alamin.. :(( :((

 Amalia sayang, be strong my dearest..Mama sentiasa doakan kesejahteraan anak Mama..

Interview Fever - Part II

So today was my interview with the 'Susu cap junjung company'..To be honest, although this position shud be an easy-peasy one compared to the risk/safety position, I was very nervous unlike the previous, coz dis company is so popular of asking fundamental university exam type of questions, since I applied for a Cost Engineer post so I did some study on planning/costing..and guess what? I was almost right except dat i didn't anticipate them to ask questions like a PTD exam but oil&gas version!

The longest interview ever, jawab exam 10pages 45min and 15mins extra time was given. Interview session 1 1/2 hours. Total hours I spent there termasuk termenung tunggu dipanggil is 3 hours! Hubby who's having an interview at Arm**a TP** pn habis dulu although his interview session starts at 12pm.

BTW, mase tengah termenung tunggu dipanggil tibe2 ade one guy yg agak familiar entered the office and sambil lalu stared at me mcm kenal. Puas kufikir, I think he's my schoolmate named Am*dtakiy********. Tapi can't recall la muke die mase skolah macammane so xsure huhuhuhu!

Killer Question.. T.T

INTERVIEW FEVER

Alhamdulillah setinggi2 kesyukuran dipanjatkan kepada Allah yang Maha Kaya lagi Maha Berkuasa. After so many months of trying and waiting, Alhamdulillah finally, I get to be called for interviews, and Maha Kaya Allah swt, all interviews are of different post. Berkat mendengar cakap suami supaya bersabar at current company and gain as much experience as i could being a multitask engineer (i.e. engineer sampah as we always joked at), berkat mendengar ckp mama ayah supaya amik Biotech Engineering huhu, that's how I met my dearest hubby and get to be a multitask engineer..Sesungguhnya I've always believe in keberkatan dalam setiap perkara/keputusan kalau mendapat restu parents and bile dh kawin restu suami n parents. That's how I'm married to dearest abang. :)

Semalam interview with this one Bumiputra Oil&Gas Consultant, although mcm same je dgn my current company i.e. bumiputra juge, the difference is, this time it's a huge company with Petronas licence, therefore almost all projects are PCSB projects. The post was a Risk/Safety Engineer. The exhilarating part was, the post is more on Process safety, therefore my dream to come true. I've always wanted a job related to Process all along. And they're offering me a Lead Engineer post, hence I demanded better salary than what I expected coz I applied for engineer biase initially. But the down part is, I'm to be stationed at Kota Kinabalu for a year, plus a 1week visit to offshore every month. Berat, berat..so many things to contemplate..breastfeeding Amalia? Whom to take care of my kids? Where shall they stay, KL or KK? Away from Hubby? Another maid or just daycare? Tapi bile google most of them are not muslim daycare, as in none yg muslim that i found. Hubby said this is the best for my future. My Mama said just doa that Allah give the best for you and your family, thus if you don't get it, then maybe it's for the best. OK, I'll make Solat Istikharah and pray to Allah for the best for us, Amin ya rabbalalamin...

This 1st March, another interview with a Dutch Oil&Gas Consultant, SBM and this time it is for a Planning/Cost Engineer post. I hope I'll do well coz the company has a good track record in terms of employee's benefit and project-wise. 

Tomorrow ade walk-in interview with this huge oil & gas consultant, worleyparsons. Ingat saje2 nk try at least I can get soalan bocor for my next interview at sbm, coz the post that I'm going for is a Project Control Engineer which also involve doing costing and planning as well. 

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segalanya untukku demi masa depan anak-anakku...Amin ya Rabbal Alamin..

p/s: special note to my kids, esok dh besar jgn degil2..dengar cakap mama n babah, insyaAllah dipermudahkan segala urusan oleh-Nya..amin..

Macih!

We always try to speak perfect English with Afeef, coz we know he can
catch up w Malay by himself since evbody around him speaks Malay. But
somehow he prefers Malay than English most of the time like today,
when he was sucking his empty bottle n babah said "ala sian ank babah,
come babah make ur milk" and he passed his bottle sambil ckp "macih!"
eventhough we always teach him to say thank you n he can say "hakyu"!
Some of the Malay words he preferred from English are:
Tepi - excuse me
Nak - i want
Anak - dont want
Dah tapai - we're home
Dah abish - finish
Air - water

What can i say, malay is his mothertongue afterall!

Milestone: Afeef 1yr 10mth old & Amalia 3mth 2wks old

Dulu mase Afeef rajin sikit update his milestone,sejak ade dua anak, bukan malas, tp sebab byk sgt perkara to update terus bingung & x update...haih..

Well, to start with, Afeef is 1 yr 10 mths old, byk betul dh pandai mengajuk kte ckp. Indahnya Iman pn die dh bole hafal cume butir2 sebutan tu xbape clear. Pandai ckp Bye, Akum (assalamualaikum), sgt friendly kalau jumpe org esp org baru akan angkat tgn sambil ckp Hi! and bile nk pegi ckp Bye! pulak, suke baca alfatihah tp part "Waladdholliiin...Amin" aje sebutan die clear. Bole fhm instructions very well like sit down, take Mama's phone, cry (he'll pretend to cry too), wait (when i said to him wait first he'll sambung ATEE? as in OK? coz sometimes I like to say "wait ok?", no, come and eat, let's take bath he'll go to the bathroom straight and wait for me at the door, InsyaAllah by 2 yrs old Afeef dh bole construct full sentence ye syg..amin..pandai rimas, i.e. when we say lets take bath terus meluru ke toilet walaupun in the midst of doing something interesting, and especially when diaper dh berat. Xsuke diaper berat, sejak dpt adik, dah many times bile diaper berat he'll tarik2 sampai koyak and open it by himself as in lorotkan on the floor and run around bottomless! Tak pandai sebut huruf L tapi pandai sebut ALLAH really well, alhamdulillah! Sgt suke Maher Zain, obviously when a child likes Indahnya Iman, sbb after azan mesti ade lagu Maher Zain. Afeef sgt suke nyanyi nowadays, asik la humming and singing tp xdgr butir just the melody. Paling favorite is, "InchaAllah..InchaAllah..." siap macam tarik nafas dulu and penuh semangat nyanyi dgn high pitch siap kening kerut2...kelakar la anak mama ni kihkihkih! 

Amalia dh pandai pusing mengiring and dh tunjuk tanda2 nk pandai meniarap sejak masuk 3mths old, tp up till now belum bole lagi, xpe syg..take ur time..ikut normal milestone chart pn 4-5mths br start meniarap. She's a friendly baby just like her Along too suke senyum n ketawa bile org dtg tgk, but Amalia is friendlier in the sense that, die memang muke senyum. Duduk diam2 sorang2 pn senyum aje, girl agaknye. Dah pandai melekek2 ketawa sejak masuk 3mths old, the 1st time was with Babah. Babah borak2 dgn die tibe2 die ketawa melekek2 dgn kuat sampai semua org toleh (malam sebelum her majlis akikah). Dah start tgk tgn from 2mths old. Masuk je 3mths terus pandai tgk tgn and masukkan dlm mulut. Start 3 mths jugak dh kenal org, bile nampak Mama buat suara nk susu "eh..eh..eh..". Mase her Aqiqah i.e. wedding Alan, she was playing with me on the bed. Tibe2 her Che tarik her to different direction and facing her Che instead and ckp, "asik main dgn mama je, meh main dgn che pulak.." Terus nangis sambil kepala toleh2 tgk Mama. Sejak tu, when I gave her to someone else, her Che or Bibik or Mama Ngah, die akan diam mula2. But once she heard my voice, try pusing ke arah my voice and terus cebik and nangis sekuat hati. And bile Mama amik balik, mcm ade switch button, terus diam nangis. Manja Mama ni, selain Mama only Babah can hold him without her crying unless nk susu.

Forever a protective brother.

Afeef mengigau!

Sgt klaka! We went to celebrate his Achik's bday at Pizza Hut Ampang
Park. Mkn pasta sgt byk, I've only discovered his cravings towards
pasta just recently. Agaknye sedap sgt pasta, mlm tu siap ngigau tgh
mkn! Mata tutup, tp tgn suap mulut n kunyah mouthfully, lps tu tgn
menggapai mcm amik food from pinggan hidang then ltk on his
plate..cutela chebol mama ni mmuahh!