I've been tested...

And I failed...


Today was the 10th of Muharram 1429H in Islamic Calendar which is better known as the Day of Ashura.
As quoted from Wikipedia, the Day of Ashura is commemorated for the following occasions which may have happened on the 10th Day of the Muharram:
1) God had mercy on Prophet Adam
2) The deliverance of Prophet Nuh from the flood
3) Prophet Ibrahim was saved from Nimrod's fire
4) Prophet Yaakub's blindness was healed after Prophet Yusof's shirt was brought to him on this day (Quran)
5) Prophet Ayub was healed from his illness
6) The Israelites were saved from Pharaoh's army
7) Prophet Isa was brought up to heaven after attempts by the Romans to capture and crucify him failed.


On this occasion, we the Muslims are encouraged to fast on combinations of two or three consecutive days including the 10th of Muharram (e.g. 9th and 10th or 10th and 11th) following the Prophet Muhammad's Sunnah and believe to get multiple rewards from the Almighty swt if we helped/donate/ease up the pain of the unfortunate on this specific holy day..

However, somehow I've forgotten that today was Ashura, let alone I did not fast today, I've also been tested by Allah..by sending two beggars to my much astonishment:

1) at McD, Petronas Station while 'Q'ing at d counter with my lil bro, Imran and staring at the menus above the counter contemplating on what i shud eat, a very old Chinese lady, with an umbrella as her walking stick, tapped my shoulder from d back. As i turned around looking at her, she mumbled in Chinese while pointing at d menus above d counter. I assumed that she was urging me to make decision fast as i'm taking her time who was 'Q'ing just behind me. Quickly i showed her way to my front giving sign that she's welcome to jump my Q. But she keeps on mumbling and refused to move forward. As i was in a hurry, i quickly made my order and somehow it strikes my mind that perhaps she had no money but wanted me to lend some coz then i realized her gestures of rubbing her stomach n her pocket while mumbling. An air of sympathy suddenly breezed through me and quickly i turned around, to my much disappointment and surprise (coz that was only a minute after she talked to me!), she wasn't there! i felt goosebumps all over me when i looked around the restaurant and i can't see her in my clear vision as though she has just vanished thru thin air. Later, my heart sank and felt so mean..

2) Then we headed to Jln TAR to shop for my wedding. While i was in KAMDAR looking for a tux for my lil bro who's going to be my flower boy, a haggard-looking Malay lady, with her children tailing her, tapped me at the shoulder, again, whilst stretching out her hands near my handbag. I was too shocked to even think for a sec and immediately walked away coz i thought she looks suspicious..later, for the second time today, i felt guilty, mean and sad for not helping dat lady...

when i got back home, i told these 2 weird happenings to my mama n kakngah. I thought the 2 incidents was very weird coz in Malaysia, it's hard to find beggars in buildings. My kakngah replies, "Memangla, arini kn Hari Asyura...you've been tested."
Ya Allah, i've failed today